“Pitchers of Silence” lyrics

I never held a funeral for that big part of me that died.
I need to put these thoughts to rest.
I need to find a peace of mind.
I need to piece my mind,
I need to find a piece of mind to rest in.
I need to find someone to confide in then let the rest in.
I need to start resting.
Needless to say, I couldn’t hide.
While thinking, “Grown men shouldn’t cry.”
Had I known then what I know now.
Had I thought now what I knew then…
I might still be human
with all those little stupid fix-ins.
As I fix sins and vixens vick souls,
stitch clothes for the characters they play then switch roles.
Nail me to the cross dress.
The hole-y cloth costs less.
I’d toss less if i still had your soft breasts to rest my head on.
Since you’ve been gone,
I recalled my issues with problems and hate,
but i can’t exactly remember the model or make.
Now glass bottles break in my death grip.
I’m about to take the next quick exit and end this head trip.
My bed’s stripped of its blankets, comforters, pillows and sheets,
but I might have to peel off all my skin to remove your scent in order to sleep.
I had my highs and lows.
When on top I let you peek out over my nose,
sitting on my shoulders and I suppose if I had a backbone,
you might still be here.
My skin is filthy…
from my lows when you weren’t there.
But to keep from feeling guilty,
I collected the dirt. I kept it piling up.
Now Mr. Feel Nothing saves his tears inside of a cup.
And he drinks. And he forgets that he’s an asshole.
Jealous of his ghosts and doubts he even has a soul.
My secret pleasures have my inner demons gossiping.
I’m a ghost writer for the horrorcore lyrics my personal monsters sing.
I’m sitting in a stranger’s tub…
with all my clothes on, shivering, considering the dangers of love.
They get half of what I have to give. If that.
It’s all about the packaging. They’re distracted by the gift rap.
Predictable. Easy to manipulate.
They’re foreshadow puppets and I’m waiting for their strings to break.
The pillars that once held up my halfway house have been taken out.
I’m in my last days now.
There’s a change coming soon.
I just want to crawl back into my mother’s womb.
I need a comfort zone,
but obviously I need to find another home.
To call my own. And always return to.
And I want it to be you. And I want it to be truth.
I sit and stare, zone out, think a lot and never sleep,
creating memories to remember and then I forget to eat.
Went to the street you used to live on,
stared at the bedroom window of your old home
with puppy eyes…
waiting for God to throw me a bone.
I’d settle for one more goodbye kiss
while I settle for less
I’m unsettled at best,
sulking while abandoning settlements.
Insulting my companions intelligence,
conversing with baby talk.
Practicing mind games,
rehearsing with playful thought.
It’s the way we fought that made my blood bubble
then turn cold,
when you made me walk through rain and mud puddles
on a dirt road.
it left me
so messy,
forget me…not.
I’ve got more mud to sling…

“shot through the heart, and you’re to blame, you give love a baaaaad naaaaaaame.”

Sage Francis, “PITCHERS OF SILENCE” off of the Personal Journals album.


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laura hunt says

Honesty should be something that we do naturally.
But honestly, to me, it seems we can't even force it.
I bet if you turned it into a law and tried to enforce it, humanity would altogether abort it.
And all together they would never be honest again.
Because it doesn't matter whether something's a law, a ritual, a right or instinctual.
Cause if its not matter with frills, anymore, it just don't matter...for realz.
Material posession, and mostly material we don't need, is the reason that most of us are livin.
In society it's the most sought after, stolen, begged, borrowd or bought after our salary's givin and even before we pay bill's that are necessarily needed in order for us to keep on livin.
It's sad that most of our dreams, are only on things that can be worn or drivin.
And just think about the children, they can't even fathom livin without cell phones or internet access in their homes.
Our future of drones?
Our great-grandchildren with smooth hands and soft bones, and livin alone with a whole lot of fakes in cyber space.
It sounds more like a future erased.
It sounds more like a generation of fakes
Like their choice has already been taken away and replaced with the atari's of yesterday.
But hey, no worries to all you mom's and dad's walkin out of wal-mart with your bags.
At least today you can breath easy with the thought that when we're all robots we'll never again have to feel hate or pain...well for surely not pain.

laura hunt says

Sage, you and I we're like one in the same. you're a prophet and i'm a prophetesse. We never worry on how the words profit us. And I know when people hear my name they giggle and laugh, saying that I'm insane. But's it's ok cause at least this way i can rest assured that they'll remember my name. Cause really what's the definition of fame?
I guess we've both got strange fame.